I have always heard the saying that the Lord works in mysterious ways and this weekend was a testament to that. This past Saturday I lost our baby. I had just found out a week earlier that I was pregnant and Alex and I couldn't have been happier but our happiness was short lived.
On Saturday morning I woke up at 0800 with some slight bleeding. I got all worried but decided to not go to the ER if it stopped and it did till about 1030 and that's when the cramping started. So it was off to the ER. When we got there we got all checked in and they did blood work and an examination. They told me to come back on Tuesday when the lab was open and get more blood work done and get another examination. Just as my amazing nurse, Mona, was coming back to take out my IV I started to have excruciating stomach pain to the point I was in tears and couldn't stop crying. They pumped me full of liquid morphine and did another exam. I had a miscarriage right there. After monitoring me to make sure the pain meds worked (and oh did they work!) I was sent home with more pain meds and told to come back on Tuesday for the blood work and exam.
At Tuesday's trip back to the hospital we learned it was in fact a miscarriage.
Through all of the pain, both physical and emotional, Alex has been wonderful. I could not ask for a better husband and best friend. He has been my rock in all this mess and I can't thank him enough for being so perfect. Thank you Boo!
I am sad that I lost my first little angel. And at times all I can think is "I want my baby back" but I know in my heart that the Lord has my baby now for a good reason. I don't know what that reason is and I sure wish I did but I know the Lord would not have taken my baby if it wasn't necessary. And with the Lord's help I know Alex and I will get pregnant again when the time is right.
This is a verse my Grandma Heitkamp showed me a long time ago that really helped us through this tough time and many more and I hope it can help you too, "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me" Philippians 4:13.
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