A Night I Will Never Forget...

Disclaimer: This is a sad post and I know I cried making it so you might cry too...just a heads up.

December 10th, 2007 I lost my brother and best friend. Today is the four year anniversary of his death. I wish I could say I will just remember all the good times I shared with him but that's not entirely true, it's hard to forget what happened that night.

Nick passed away that night from a firearm accident to the head. As I held him in my arms begging him not to leave me, he passed on. We lost a wonderful young man that day. At times I still blame myself for not being able to save him but I know that there was no coming back from that type of accident. But one thing is comforting...I know he did not die alone. He passed on with me telling him how much I love him and how much I need him. And I feel very lucky to have been the last one with him.

Nick was and still is my best friend. He was always there for me no matter what I needed. He helped me though so many hard times in my life that I know I could not have made it through without him.

Nick was such a kind and caring person. You could always find him with a smile on his face. 

Nick would do anything to help anyone. He was very selfless and giving. Family was also important to him. He would do anything for his family.

To say Nick loved to skate would be an understatement. He lived and breathed skateboarding. He was a the skate park every day and all weekend long. He was also very good! He made the hardest of tricks look easy. We held his memorial service at the skate park just down the road from our house. We found that to be the perfect place to have it since it was one of the places he loved most. And I know that in Heaven he is still skating...

I will never forget my little brother. I love him with all that I am and I always will. I still to this day remember everything exactly as it happened that night and I still have nightmares about it. But even in my dreams he is there to comfort me. I look forward to the day when I can see his smiling face again and hold him in my arms and never let go. Here are a few more pictures of him that I would like to share...

I love you Nicholas Aaron Heitkamp...you are never forgotten. 

Read Along With Me: JR Ward...Favorite #1

JR Ward is one of my favorite authors. I have been reading her stuff since my freshman year of high school and I haven't put her down since! She also writes under the name of Jessica Bird. Most of her writing is romance/ paranormal romance. Now this is noting like Twilight. JR Ward's writing is very adult (probably not mom approved).

I have not read much of her stuff that she has written as Jessica Bird but I do plan to read more. Most of the things I read of hers are written as JR Ward. She has two series as JR Ward, The Black Dagger Brotherhood and The Fallen Angels. My favorite series is The Black Dagger Brotherhood. They are about 

this brotherhood of vampires. JR Ward has created a dark and rich world that just sucks you in

as a reader and you can't get out even if you wanted to. She creates very cocky and tough leading male characters and strong, independent women characters that you grow to love. JR Ward has a wonderfully sarcastic writing style and a dirty sense of humor that makes me laugh. It reminds me of things I would say or think and that just keeps me reading. She is blunt and to the point to the point in her writing so the story never drags on and on. Her books are usually action packed and keeps you turning pages.

 Dark Lover its the first book in her The Black Dagger Brotherhood series, followed by eight other books and a ninth coming out this next year.

I am currently reading Envy (book three) form The Fallen Angels series and I love it as I do all her books. The Fallen Angels series is about what it sounds like. It is about a man who is equal parts good and evil and he has seven souls to save while being influenced by both the devil and angels.

Covet is the first book of The Fallen Angel series and there are currently two more books in the series. 

I love JR Ward's writing and I know you will too. If you would like so see more just visit her website http://www.jrward.com/ or on Facebook!